Hair rising, tingly feelings.
Heart's fluttering and face's flushing.
How can I be normal when you're near?
When my inside was a mixed emotion of joy, anxiety and fear.
Your face in the back of my eye.
Your name's in my lips to cry.
With your all male and musky scent in this nose of mine.
And the very image of your well-built form, etched in my mind.
How could fate be so bad.
When it's you I've always been wishing to have.
Maybe I did something wrong.
To have fate punished me this long.
Every time you walk by, my heart would sigh.
Wearing that boyish grin and that lovely smile.
Though I'm afar watching intensely,
It felt like you're just an arm's length near me.
I know I have to get over you.
Soon but not yet though.
For I love the intensity of my feelings for you.
Though you're oblivious how much I do.
There was once you pinched my cheek, one rainy morn.
And oh, how I love to interpret it as a caress 'till I'm worn.
I could still remember your warm hand against the cool morning breeze.
And the novelty frisson ricocheted down to my knees when to you I gazed.
I used to reprimand myself and would say, "get a grip".
And stop the nonsense daydreaming before it gets too deep.
But my heart's just too stubborn and wayward.
And it refused to succumb, now I fell so hard.
You crept all over me, seeping into my vein.
Containing my blood streams, now I have to feign.
Feigning my every move every time you're near.
Is my knee-jerk reaction to hide from you that I cared.
But my eyes were wide open to the reality.
That having you is utterly insanity.
For you have had a lover.
A woman in my heart so dear.
Yes, you're happily and contentedly in love with her.
My best friend and in my heart, a sister.
Wait for my feelings to die that's what I should do.
Though in my heart I'll always say, sotto voce, I LOVE YOU.
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